first work week
Today concludes my first week at my new job! Things are going pretty well, mostly just tired at the moment. Trying not to discount my feelings too much, I keep telling myself, "I can't complain I only work 3 days a week", and like, that's true, but I'm still allowed to not like things. I can acknowledge my privilege and still have normal thoughts and emotions related to working.
My work is a bit more crowded than I like, I regularly see sick people, see very little hand sanitizer, it turns out I actually cannot watch videos while I work (didn't get in trouble or anything, but I see no reason why we shouldn't be able to as long as we aren't actively distracted), the parking lot is huge and crowded so I often have a very far walk to and from my car, and I still don't know if I get any benefits (I'm assuming I don't but they've made several errors with clerical things so I'm not positive).
On the upside; the job isn't any more difficult than my old job, people have been generally friendly, I've had no issue informing people of and correcting my pronouns (so far), the shift is early enough to get groceries after, late enough where I can still stay up fairly late, I got to choose the days I work, and of course, I only work 3 days a week, so the majority of the week, including the entire weekend, belongs to me.
Really my only major worries are benefits (once I have money again I'll have to figure out insurance), and pay. I keep trying to tell myself 5 (really 6) hours less per week isn't that big of a difference, but I still worry. I need to see how my finances shake out, and it's the one thing that's really worrying, especially with all my car issues from the start of the year weighing heavy on my credit card (This is the first time ever I have had to make a monthly payment on my card, I hate it).
I dunno, waiting to fall into my new rhythm, figure out how to make my workdays as painless as possible, and get the most joy out of the rest of week. I'm a lucky person, but I have the bad habit of questioning every little thing. I just need to find my new tempo and get back in my groove.