garbage mood
Vent post feel free to skip
My car not being fixed sucks, work is being annoying, and my mood is just plummeting.
I hate when I'm in a bad mood cause it makes me think about how much I hate work. Why is there a place we're forced to go where you aren't allowed to be a fucking human. You have to preform exactly the same every day despite everything going on in the world personal or otherwise. We're in the coldest darkest time of the year and no one knows what a face mask is so they keep getting eachother sick. Under any amount of mental turmoil you have to be exactly the same, except when they decide to give you even more work for exactly the same pay.
I hate it here and I'd do anything to just serve a real community with people who see you as a person instead of a number. I wish I could just be a mail carrier, but then I'd have to turn everything upside down and I could end up with an awful schedule or some other million things that keep me here even when I'm seething.
I hate living in the middle of nowhere in a bigot filled town in a country run by con artists.
I just want to be a person and I get so few days a week to do that. And most of that time is spent recovering from this gray box hell.