I need to be more assertive
Had my nice mood ruined today cause I was trying to have a conversation with someone and they kind of just talked at me. Like, they never asked me anything or gave me room to really speak, and the one time they did I talked for a moment before they immediately continued to talk about themself.
I had this problem once at work too, where someone just talked at me for months and months and it started annihilating my mental health because, turns out when someone only see's you as a microphone to talk into, it makes you feel pretty worthless. It got to the point where I just stopped responding to the guy, and started moving away from him when he'd sit with me.
And I've complained before about how 8m constantly getting misgendered despite having a pin with my pronouns on it in the middle of my forehead (on my beanie) and for some reason I've decided the answer to that problem is to buy more obvious pins!
I need to speak up! I need to interrupt when I'm not being heard!
I might be the kind of person to let the quiet people speak, but I need to adapt to the fact that that kind of person isn't there for me!
I need to stop being so passive! I need to let out the anger that I feel when I'm being wronged! I keep bottling it up and letting it crush me on the inside, and it's only hurting me and the few people who have actually put in the effort to be close to me!
I keep saying I need to be more assertive but I'm going to try harder, I'm going to have to risk making people upset with me instead of just letting them have their way! I'm really going to try!
It's going to be very hard, but I know I'll be a happier person if I can do this.