new goal
I think something I need to work towards is not feeling like I'm being 'needy', 'annoying', or 'too much'. The biggest issue I have, especially now that I'm trying to assert myself more and talk to people, is that I worry I'm being annoying when I'm reaching out to people. I'll email someone, they'll email back, and then I want to email back but I feel like if I do then I'm pestering them. It's hard to know though. Am I being annoying by reaching out when I'm thinking about someone? I can't really ask someone, "How often do people reach out to you unprompted?". I don't know.
I think I should try harder. It isn't like anyone has said that I'm being annoying, though I suppose there are less direct ways of them communicating that, that I could miss. It could very much be that this anxiety is unwarranted, and that my reaching out to people is welcome.
I'll try to be better, and kinder to myself. If I am going to continue to love myself I can't keep worrying that I am a burden when being thoughtful. This one feels more difficult, but I'm going to do my best.