sad vent
another vent post about being exisistentially sad, feel free to skip, it's been a rough new year.
It continues to boil down to a lack of community and capitalism robbing us of our means of changing things.
Maybe I'll just try and send some people emails or something, be the kindness I want to see. I just want to talk to people and know I'm not alone. It's so hard not to feel like I'm being a bother or being weird though. It feels extra bad when most of my relationships end when I stop trying. Just makes it feel like I shouldn't start in the first place. I dunno, it hurts feeling like you're the one person people don't care to think about.