Tired day
Little bit of a vent post but like, damn am I tired and sad that like, this is life. I'm just going to keep to this same job I hate over and over, there's no accessible covid conscious community near me so I feel so isolated, I'm just spending every day thinking about my next day off so I can actually be home and feel human instead of just being uncomfortable surrounded by unmasked people open mouth coughing every day like infants, all for an amount of money that will never give me a home of my own.
Is this just what life is going to be forever. Just trade away over half my days working for nothing, wearing away at my body until I can't use it anymore.
I keep searching online trying to find people near me who care, who understand how I feel, and I always come up blank, and online communities feel impossible to penetrate or host.
I just feel spiritually drained. With the cold I can't even retreat to the beauty of nature and fresh air. My soul doesn't feel compatible with this world. I will persevere, but I ache and ache and ache for community, and freedom.