unnecessary stress
Unhappy angry vent post warning, feel free to skip.
As soon as I start getting ready for bed and thinking about work my anxiety shoots up so much, I hate it. I start thinking about money, and insurance, and if I'll be ok in the future, and what am I going to be doing tomorrow, and what if they decide they don't want a part time worker, and should I just get over it and go full time, but then I work more and I'm back to the dread of feeling like my life is being wasted, and I just hate how rapidly my brain goes from happy to feeling shoved into a corner. Why am I thinking about not having benefits right now just let me sleep and relax!
Fuck this whole capitalist system where %99.9999 of my stress revolves around needing money and a job. I hope this country fucking explodes and we figure out that this isn't living. All this so like 100 people can be fucked up wastes of life with infinite money.