vibing, kinda bleh
Taking it easy tonight, I was good and got my food prepped for tomorrow. My coworkers told me last time they worked overtime on a weekend like this they didn't even stay for the full time. I'm trying not to get my hopes up but I really hope that's the case tomorrow. Still sad that I have to work on the day I usually have dedicated to hanging out with my partner. I hope it goes by fast enough that we can still have a nice night together.
It's been a very sleepy lazy day, I've been half tempted to try going to the game store lately, just cause I've wanted to play magic. The problem is the store sucks and the odds of having a good time there are way lower than they should be. I really wish we had a nice store nearby, I wish we lived in the timeline where I could just say screw it and open one myself. Pretty sure a game store run by a queer person would be amazing for the area I live in.
I still wish I had taken more initiative when cohost was still around. I really wanted to try and organize fun events on that website, like a fun open bracket fighting game tournament, or a cube draft league or something. I really feel like that site and my experience on it was perfect for getting a group of people on it together for a good time, I just never took the shot. To be fair I had a discord server for a while for mutuals, but that kinda ground to a stop when the site shut down. I still have hope for the future that things will change and maybe I'll be able to afford to live in a more progressive community, but for now I don't really feel like I have the means for that.
It is really nice though when I do talk to someone through my email. I just always worry I'm being a nuisance. I dunno, I'm still working on it.
I'm not really sure where this post is going anymore, might delete it cause it feels too sad. I'm doing my best.